| 183. tutee |
[11 Feb 2006|03:05pm] |
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The mother of one of my former tutees called me one day because she wasn't happy with her's son's current tutor. I agreed to meet and I spent an hour talking to him to evaluate his progress. I asked him to show me his new home since they had moved since the last time I saw him. He had gone skiing the day before so he showed me the photographs and videos from his trip. There's a girl in a lot of his photos and since I'm a curious cat I, of course, asked about her. It turns out that it's his girlfriend and he requested that I don't tell his mother because his parents don't want him to date. :-o "Why is he telling me this?," I wonder. "Why is he putting me in such a position?"
When I first met him, he was a recent emigrant and his English was lacking. He was a little shy and a little awkward but he was always polite. But he didn't seem interested in learning. He directed his interest at anything but; he was an avid Jerry Springer spectator. Flash forward a couple years and I find the same boy but not quite as polite and not quite so shy. People still flock to the U.S. in search of better lives for their children. They believe that their children can be better educated and lead prosperous lives in the "land of the free"...
I asked him to write a persuasive essay and to e-mail it to me. Before I left, I asked him how long he expected to take and he quickly quipped that he could complete the assignment in two hours. My inbox is empty... :S
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| 182. nightmare |
[09 Feb 2006|10:44pm] |
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thriving ivory |
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Last night I had this horrible dream in which I was being gunned down. I couldn't go near windows because someone was always lurking there. When I escaped through the door (and I flew), I was being pursued by two men.
The details are fuzzy but I woke up feeling relieved even though I knew it was a dream. I know I can't fly. It was just so strange. I haven't had a dream where I flew away from something evil...since...I was about ten. I used to have a recurring nightmare in which a lady on a broomstick would chase me. I could never see her face. It's scarier when you don't know who your pursuer is. I would fly around the neighborhood and end up hiding in a nursery (the plant kind, not the children kind) or in a neighbor's home. I felt so free being able to fly...fly away from all my problems. Of course, that was only in dream land... ^_^
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| 180. nightmare of you |
[07 Feb 2006|10:47pm] |
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I Want to be Buried in Your Backyard
The streets are all violent
with murderous excitement
the hunter and the prey are dancing every day
that waltzing jibberish
where intake becomes outlandish
i'm in a bad way every passing day
Chorus
"so where do we go from here" i'll say
you're a shinging star, you'd do great in L.A.
and i keep fixing every habit that i break
oh, megan, is this thing of ours still on?
for i haven't slept a wink since you have been gone
now i want to be buried in your backyard
and when the flowers grow,
just know you're still in my heart.
a flash of dark interest steers us into this car crash
uniting our remains, a fiery hurray
our hands touch unnoticed
pressed up against melting glass
you're calling out my name as the air escapes.
Chorus x2
when the flowers grow,
just know you're still in my heart.
when the flowers grow,
just know you're still in my heart.
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| 179. stayover |
[07 Feb 2006|10:36pm] |
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Misery
Looking back at it life is such a shame
Point the finger at me I'm the one to blame
How was I to know your sadness was my fault?
I hadn't done a thing I'd won it through default
I'm just a stupid kid I will be when I die
'Cause I won't grow up no I won't be made to try
One day I'll be someone and then you will be proud
And being so unhappy that won't be allowed
Chorus
I'm just a misery messing up your life
I'm just a misery messing up your life
I'm just a stupid joke making all this strife for you
I'm just a misery
In your room I play guitar you take a pill
Is it just me or the drugs that make you ill?
You look for something new a tingling inside
And now I know it; your love for me has died
I lied to myself while I wrote this song
I should've known it was for you all along
To have you back again I'd do anything
But when you hurt yourself I know that I can't win
Chorus
Bridge x2
So put on your black top
Put on your black skirt
Put on the black tights with the holes
Wear your spiky collar
And the boots that make you taller
They're two sizes small I know
Chorus x2
Bridge x2
Last time
And the boots that make you taller
Cos just like me and everything
It makes you miserable I know
Misery
Naturally Deselected
Tonight's our special weekly night together
So we sit alone as you bitch your friends out
And I say, "Oh dear, that's terrible! It's a sin!"
And you say, "You're a great listener", but mean
"Don't butt in!"
Pre-Chorus
I had this thought the other day
What if everyone traded relationships like playing cards?
'Cause you're no Queen of Hearts
You're just a pretty face
A Joker in search of a Diamond
And you've lost this Ace
Chorus
So as I call my friends
That I've had for years
You tell me how
They bore you to tears
That's why you ditched yours years ago
They were
Naturally deselected, naturally
You tried to organise me to be like you
Made a five-year plan with all these sensible goals
I could have scored once but now I keep missing
Walking on people just leads to your tripping
Pre-Chorus
Chorus
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| 178. a new year |
[01 Feb 2006|11:29pm] |
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I feel better now. Had some pain recently and went back to the doctor. I think I need to take better care of myself. But anyway, I've been really busy. Had to run around and do stuff for the New Year. It's always busy at this time of the year. Have to visit people and prepare a lot of things. After all the fuss, I took a nice nap (which wasn't necessarily long, but restful). I haven't gotten a chance to try the recipes in the new book my friend gave me. I've marked a bunch of things I think I can make but I haven't even had a chance to go to the grocery store to get fresh produce. I can't get enough of this song. It's so happy. I also like Hard-Fi and I want to go see them (because they're going to be around) but I can't get away and I don't know if I can handle long car trips. Doctor said I should take it easy (easier than I have been). I'm listening to some new bands though. Oh! I saw some movies I really like (...oh, but that was a while ago)...Crash was great. It's a little depressing but it makes you think. And I got really involved with the movie. I am usually not like that. I like most movies but they don't really get to me...you know? ^_^ I saw an advertisement seeking a web designer to promote bands and it's something I really would like to do. It's a pro bono gig but I wouldn't mind putting the time into it. Anyway, we'll see how that turns out.
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